on June 4th 2025, i hit three years sober! In honor of that, I wanted to go through my videos over the years and talk about the progression of my substance abuse and how it all played out off camera. We go through the story of how my life went from perfectly normal - just another day - to being addicted to heroin, and how it all happened right when my youtube was suddenly taking off. ---------------- In an effort to follow youtube's guidelines, I had to censor the video when mentioning any harder substances. At first, I planned to just bleep them out and provide context in the description, but instead of that, i went ahead and posted malapropism's in place of the original words on the screen during those moments - hopefully it doesn't make things too confusing!! ---------------- NOTE: This video focuses on the timeline and progression of my drug-use, and doesn't necessarily depict the environment i was in that brought me to a place where i made the choice to partake in using substances. for further context, here are my original videos about the topic. they're not perfect, but they include all the details i left out today: First Video About My Addiction: https://youtu.be/Pf062908osU?si=iU4wdd-1weu2mUYq Video About My Relationship (Pls Brace for How Emotional I Am): https://youtu.be/zUstszFdjmo?si=Dj7fIvc0jW1z56Mf ---------------- for business inquiries, contact me at : taylorndean@gmail.com ----------------- WATCH MORE: https://goo.gl/6Bwvua CLICK TO SUBSCRIBE TO SUPPORT ME AND MY ANIMALS: https://goo.gl/1GlVxm ------------------ SOCIALS: INSTAGRAM: http://www.instagram.com/taylorndean TIKTOK: https://www.tiktok.com/@taylorndean TWITTER: http://www.twitter.com/taylorndean ------------------ chapters: 0:00 - Important Context 1:46 - Hi! 3 Years Sober! 3:13 - The Beginning (everything's normal!) 7:32 - Moving Out...and Moving In Together 8:31 - First Signs of Things to Come 10:52 - vicodin 13:38 - coca cola 14:28 - A Million Subscribers! 16:39 - 2018 20:34 - The Beginning of the End...? 22:56 - H 25:35 - Fin...t (embarrassing videos lol) 30:20 - How I Got Sober | Rehab #1 32:50 - i'm home! everything's fine! 35:38 - ...everything is not fine 37:32 - First Relapse, Second Rehab, Second Relapse 40:42 - More About 2020 & 2021 (feat. Beth) 46:02 - Early 2022 47:12 - Getting Off H 50:00 - 2023 to Now (Being a Cry Baby)